The past two days seems like a dream to me.
I've seen them upclose, gotten their signature, talked to them and all.
My ever first time being so so close to people I love.
They really have great personalities unlike other idols.

All my sleepless nights are worth it.
Even the money I spent on the package for them, the boards for them, the effort used in folding the straw hearts for them, the money spent in chasing them.

Fan-signing,
all the boys were really (sincerely) shocked when i took out the board to give to them.
And instead of just 'thank you.' they went 'omg/oh ~ thank you' with the really sincere and truthful expression.
Soohyun is the best! When he saw the board, he said 'omg i love you so much.' and i said back 'i love you too.' then he replied again with 'i love you too.' OMG!
How sweeeeet can he get?!

Showcase,
they performed 빙글빙글, Not Young, Talk To Me, End of the Road, 뭐라고 and 만만하니.
Perfect and wonderful performance. They really gave their best.
Van was chasing theirs after showcase and we got to chase behind their van!
Eli and Soohyun kept looking behind!
Then when we showed Xander's board and Kibum's board,
they'll actually ask the member to go to the back and greet us!
And when Soohyun was looking at the back,
I used my hand to make a heart sign and when Jenies pointed it to him,
he did the heart sign back to me! ^^
I swear I'm so touched by what he did that I teared a little.

Everything ended and all,
the hotel is in chaos.
Those fans should really be thought a lesson!
Pushing between fans and all, it's okay. I understand.
But please, you girls are pushing the BOYS as well!
Did you know that Soohyun got hurt?!
Did you know that Kibum tripped?!
Did you know that Dongho got to squeeze through the crowd by crouching?!
Did you know that Xander was angry at us?!
Those fans seriously don't bother about their safety AT ALL!
And Soohyun got injured, even though there's already TWO bouncers and TWO security guards surrounding him!

Shall post videos and pictures up if I feel like it some time.
I hope for later's departure, those fans will behave themselves!
I really don't wish to see them getting hurt and upset over the nasty behaviours of the fans.
Still hesitating whether to send them off/stalk them later.

오전 1:45

Today has been a sucky day for me.
Greeted with sad news at home.
Ben-ben is gone.
After suffering for so long, she's finally decided to leave.
She'll definitely find a better owner than me up there.
Not even in time to celebrate her + dan-dan's 2 year old b'day together :'(
Cried and stroked her for the last time. I'll miss you baby.

오전 12:04

Can you believe I'm actually the lucky 7 to win a ticket to the SSS?
Yes, I am that lucky to be the 7th person to tweet the correct answer and win!
I think I'm really fated with them, 'cause of several reasons.

1) I'm able to be the top 300 to purchase VVIP ticket.
2) I'm able to get my pay right before the payment date for the ticket.
3) I'm able to have my off day on Monday, being able to get updated on their concert in the Phillipines.
4) I'm able to be the lucky 7 winner to tweet the right answer in regard to the question posed to win SSS ticket.

There ain't that much coincidences than these events.
I've never been so lucky in my life, seriously.
This is the first time I've ever won in a game/quiz/draw or w/e you name it.
I think I'm really fated with them.

I want the 5ive to be together again.
I'll always keep the faith.
They'll be back, as 5ive.

오전 1:11

Did i ever mentioned, I fucking hell hate people touching my stuffs?
Especially without my permission!
That fucking bitch succeeded in making me bloody pissed off in the middle of the night!
The day before she took my speakers without asking and placed it in her room,
I took it back and kept it inside my room.
And when I wanted to take it out, the box is empty!
Obviously, that bitch took it away AGAIN!
I seriously wonder why I have such a fucking hell selfish and stupid mum who just knows how to make me bloody pissed off and make my life miserable!
Like what the fuck only okay!
I've written a note in chinese and stick on the fridge.
Saying, those who touch my things without my permission again, be prepared that your things will be messed up by me! This is just a warning!
She better know what to do after reading that,
which is to return the speakers to me!!! Nabei...

오전 2:38

Left 7 more days, and i'm not done with anything yet!
Not on the boards, not on the letters, not on the videos!

Work was great ytd, idkw either.
Was quite high after my break.
Then there's like nothing to do also.
And we're like all slacking o.o
Qianxia especially, lol. Since there's Wanqi and Winnie at counter,
me and agnes at fridge, LOL!
That makes her no place to stand! and nothing to do!
She thought me abit on how to do closing for cashier.
Then bought home those flat flat puffs which the new baker made 2 days ago -.-

Got to get started on the boards!
If not I can prepare to die ):
Hope they have a safe flight to Phillipines ~
And that everything will go well over there!
U-Kiss fighting!

오전 12:34

Today ain't a really good day at cashier.
Got some sucker mother-fucker customers!
I served one, and Audrey served another.
Both are really mother-fuckers, esp the one Audrey served!
Mine, she ask how much can i serve with a 8" cake.
I told her '16 or so' as that's basically the average amount.
And she replied LOUDLY 'are you sure? you cut 16 pieces for me to see then.'
and in my mind I was like 'wtfuck! you don't believe then don't buy lah. Not as though I want to do your business right. nabei.'
Then lucky I need go do other things, so I went off.

Audrey's one. Damn fuck pissed sia.
Those creams and colorings are NOT meant to be taken home,
and the apuneh lady argue with her say 'I paid for these items, so I have the right to utilise it. If you don't let me take it home, I'll ask my son to eat it here.'
Audrey alr told her and explained that those can't be eaten or brought home,
yet she just don't fucking listen to her explanation!
Her son wanted to return the creams to us,
and the fucking mom just fucking asked the son to eat it all up in a stern way!
Very fuck right?!

Gosh.
Work later again -.-
Frankie yesterday asked me whether i got bring my laptop or not, lol.
'cause he the day before asked me go home rest early,
then ask me next day bring my laptop he help me keep first. LOL!
Anyway, bathed with fucking cold water just now zzz...
Water heater spoiled like wtf.
If on = high chance of getting shocked to death.
Y'know how powerful it is right, water + electricity.

오전 12:04

Emotional work day yesterday.
Both me and agnes cried.
'cause the day before I was treating her so coldly,
then when I reached home Rebecca accompanied me for a drink.
Spilled everything to her and I cried 'cause I felt so guilty.
Next day when there's no customer I told her this:
'Do you know ytd I cried? 'cause I feel very guilty towards a close friend of mine. She tried to talk to me and all, but I just ignored her. She's my close friend, yet I treated her like that. I felt very disappointed and angry with myself, and sad for her. For having a friend like me.' (that's when my tears start to form.)
I asked her to guess who it was, she didn't get it right.
I gave her a hint, 'its a girl who sits infront of me during sec one.'
then she knew it was her and we started to tear.
Emotional day, but at least she knows what I'm really thinking.

Today work was alright 'cause I'm at the fridge and not cashier.
Audrey work from 4pm till closing! Happy!
She's a 2OneDay fan yo.
Jenies came to visit with her friend, haha.
Chatted and yeah, lol.
Bought puffs home again.
Frankie really damn generous with the cream sia.
And he even offered to pass $10 to me ask me go home take a rest, 7pm then return.
I said no, I got money to go home but I don't want waste bus fare.
Then he again try to give me $10 ask me go eat subway,
and I said I can go withdraw money. Lol.
Thanks Frankie! You're a great manager ^^

오후 11:48

Been feeling unwell, and so did cashiering for awhile before Qianxia ask me go promote cakes.
Saw the actor in 'Your Hand In Mine' acting as Liqin.
He real person quite handsome, and i didn't recognize it's him when he's like right in front of me during that time.
He even made eye contact with me, and I was like 'he is an actor right? who ah?' in my mind!
Damnit. Should have walked up to him, ask if he wanna buy cake and when he say 'just taking a look' or something like that, then ask him 'can i take a picture with you?'
Damn epic yeah!
Next time must open my eyes big big.

Had a chat with panda, she made me happy (:
Not 'cause of what she told me, but 'cause of the fact that she cared.
She's more than a friend to me. More than normal friend.
Thankyou and I love you panda (:

오전 1:25

See how shagged she is? Plus her fur is dropping! ㅠ.ㅠ Break my heart.

오후 7:30

Read the comments and all on the wall post she posted on his site.
No doubt they're really a couple.
Almost teared again.
But no, I'm going to be strong.

Read about the cruelty of SM to TVXQ, H.O.T, Shinhwa and all.
H.O.T fans are worried for us, Cassiopeias.
'cause they don't wish for us to go through the same pain they had gone through for H.O.T during those days as well.
Yes, it hurts alot to see them suffering.
But we're going to stay strong for them, no matter how young we are.

Now, I'll only have fandom as my one and only love.
Guys are nothing.
Do not fall crazily in love, 'cause he'll not love you back crazily like you do.

오전 12:06

You left me still thinking about you.
I guess it's really true between you and her.
She even posted the lyrics to 爱的主旋律 on your wall,
saying it's the love song between you both.
How can I still smile?
I'm trying to pick myself up by working.
Now I don't hate work, 'cause work occupies my mind up.
But after work ends, all goes back to normal.

오전 12:28