I should not trust people that easily. 'cause once it's really broken, it hurts a lot. When you said you like me, I believe it. And now, this is the outcome I get from trusting what you said. Now there's this wall built within me, I'm not going to let any one else in my life so easily any more. Never am I going to trust people that easily again. It's just a week and you've actually liked another. Do you even know how much it hurts to know the fact that you like another only just after a week of not talking?

If you don't even mean it in the first place, why must you say it? Now, I'm afraid to love. You made me to not believe in this thing called 'Love' and 'Trust'. I cried myself to sleep at 4am to find myself waking up and crying again at 11am. I'm weak, yes. But after going through this 'lesson', I'll be strong. Thank you for teaching me that 'Trust' can really be broken that easily, and that words from guys are nothing 'cause they usually don't mean it.

which i only blogged out on my private blog instead. the best place for me to rant out about everything and anything.

i feel like drinking, i want to get high, to forget about my troubles. all these shits are killing me ): but i'm still glad, to have my dear i.Wish girls who always read my tweets and cheer me up, giving me support. especially Sarah and ahri. i love you girls.

anyway just a random note, the day before jolyn came my house and i thought her how what we learned on the first lesson for dance.

and i realize, the person who do the counting 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 really will get mixed up with the steps lol. 'cause that time we get into groups of 4, those 2 guys who take turn to do the counting of 8s actually got the steps mixed up. haha.

ok. bye. can't wait for august, photoshoot at chinese and japanese garden with the girls ~