U-Kiss (♥) Kiss-Me

2011년 2월 28일 월요일

I realized that i've been crying these few days at night.

and yesterday night was like, one of the worse i've ever had.

i cried for like...3x for that one night, within less than 2hrs?

first is when i gave mum the sunflower lah, second is when i was online and things which jiayi told me regarding spoon got into my mind and yeah. (what she said is right, that when she tell me i might say its alright but after that once its absorbed into my mind i'll start to think and cry.)

third is when i was watching the fan-made video of u-kiss made by ukissmesg girls using u-kiss song titled Kiss Me. fourth is when i just lied down on my bed and started to cry again. fifth is when i was standing outside bro room then min and ahjie saw me then i gestured for min to come out. the moment she came out i hugged her and cried AGAIN! (i actually intended to tell them im hungry and want noodles! really.)

seriously idk whats wrong with me lah. oh, and its not 3x but 5x that i cried ytd -.-

so, today is jiayi's last day at work and i had kfc breakfast with her ^^

then ah mai also came back from vietnam already! ^^

then supposed to start work at 12pm then frankie ask me to start at 1.30pm but i told him i reach already so he say i start at 12pm.

quite a boring day 'cause not much customers. and today is stock-check day.

after that nothing much then i help key in the data.

then closing and yeah.

frankie came and talked a lil bit with us and after that while i'm on bus and walking home, was on the phone with him.

he really very long winded sia hahaha.

오후 11:46

2011년 2월 27일 일요일

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XENA!

Started work at 11am instead 'cause i reached too early.

and i've already set my mind (i hope i can do it though) that i won't bother myself with spoon anymore, not anymore.

since what winnie and jiayi said to me are the same, that he seems like a hua xin guy etc.

ended work and jiayi and yiyuan accompany me go buy sunflower for mum! (:

the auntie charge me at a cheaper price for a medium size one (initially i chose small 'cause i no money) 'cause she know i'm buying for my mum haha.

after that headed back to shop and winnie, mei and jiayi helped me to wrap it up nicely ^^

thanks so much girls! appreciate it a lot a lot!

while on the bus, i'm worried that mum might not like it or say something which will disappoint me or what haha.

when i'm at the door, i asked mum to open the door for me while i have the sunflower hidden behind me.

then when she opened already, i presented the sunflower to her and the first thing she did is to hug me tight!

and she said that i'm the only one who remembered her birthday! then we both cried :')

I'm so glad that she loved the sunflower (:

wanted to make a cake for her but oh well. i've got no money so yeah, just a sunflower.

Dear Mummy,

I might say I hate you and I might give you attitude etc etc but deep down, I realize and I hope you know that I love you. It might just be a sunflower which might die soon, but I'm glad that I'm the one who remembered your birthday, that I'm the one who manage to make you cry tears of joy. Not that I love making you cry though. You made me cry too when you said that I'm the only person who remember your birthday, and you're very touched by it. Why would I forget your birthday? I still remember when it's my birthday, you even stayed up till 3am+ just to wait for me and sing birthday song for me with a cake while I was outside crying my heart out for a guy who I know I will never be with. I love you.

Dear Nana,

yes! you have one special message as well! you're one of the best cousin I've ever had, aside from Min! hehe. We might hardly talk or contact each other etc, but I still love you y'know right? hahaha. Min told me how anxious you was about me when you read what happened on my blog regarding 'that' incident and I'm very thankful for the concern you're showing me despite us not really contacting much through sms or phone calls, but just online. And i can say that whenever you need a listening ear, I'll be there to listen yeah (: I might not be able to help much or do much, but yeah. I wish I can be a great cousin to you (: I love you!

오후 8:42

had work today.

was quite busy but fun at the same time.

i'm racy's chinese teacher lol.

as usual hua is being funny and yeah.

he left even before it's 11pm...

somehow, i've got a feeling that he'll definitely avoid me again...

idkw i'm getting so emotional about it.

i told myself to stop thinking and if that's really the case just let it be...

while walking home, i suddenly thought of mikki and nikki...

and my heart hurts. i miss them so much, my dearest babies...

while typing this post, while sharing that photo of them on facebook, i cried again...

i actually stopped crying...

after eating caprice and the ice-cream from ytd...

i can't help it.. i'm being too emotional, i know...

오전 12:16

2011년 2월 25일 금요일

end up got to work 'cause mei not feeling well.

headed down and bought macadamia spree ice-cream from new zealand natural and i felt better after eating it.

then 5.30 started work and yeah.

hua was angry with winnie for accepting cake orders without asking if there'll be stocks for the cake or not.

then frankie called and yeah.

got once he called and i let racy say 'wo du zi e' and then frankie was laughing and say 'you all think i'm ur santa claus ah?' then i say 'no.' then he say 'like what?' and i replied 'food.' then we both laughed and i said just joking then he say 'i already told mei not to sms xiaochen till so late liao. see, now she today tell me she sick' then i was like 'haha! but why xiaochen still here instead of visiting mei?' and he replied 'he cfm sms mei say tonight he'll go visit her one lah. haha' and we both laughed then end of call. lol.

got one customer, like ah beng like that, with tattoo and gold jewelleries on hand.

he bought chef creation cake from us, then at night he bought another boston.

and when i waiting for him take out his money, wow! i saw a $1000 note leh! rich or what!

then later he say he going buy something be back soon, then before he left he say 'you all here 3 person working right?' i say yes then he walk off.

i thought he going cold storage buy drinks for us or something but no leh.

when he returned, he bought 3 new zealand natural ice-cream for us! two scoops for each person leh! omg! O.O

he seems like a busy person leh, haha. keep having phone calls one.

and... i thought today FINALLY can take same bus home as him but no ):

and my whole mood really went down...

luckily there's the ice-cream which that big brother bought.. sigh...

오후 11:57

2011년 2월 24일 목요일

I don't think I can even truly smile if there's no spoon to make me.

people at work can sense there's something wrong with me, that i'm not feeling happy.

but my mood got a lil' better when spoon was walking to the toilet, we look at each other smile and he pull my ponytail again. lol.

then when he walking back, his hand rested on my shoulder and idkw but for that instant, i felt relieved and happy.

it's as though he's telling me 'things will be alright.' get it?

then when he go for his break, he also walk to toilet first.

then again we look at each other and smile. it made me feel better.

told winnie and she said that actually right now, my two main source of energy that keeps me happy and going during work is u-kiss/tvxq and spoon.

so when one of them is down, i'm actually depending on the other to make me happy.

i guess what she said is right..

oh. and i fucking hate NHM!

they FORCED kibum to leave the group like WTF?!

what did he do wrong?! he might not be able to sing or dance well but at least and I'M SURE he's got the talent to do well!

Dear Sarah,

I know we might never ever be able to meet each other 'cause we're both living in different side of the earth. But I do sincerely wish that you won't be leaving twitter/fb 'cause leaving these two social sites is equivalent to leaving me. I don't wish to lose contact with you, even though our only way is through online. You know how much I love you, how much I care for you. I'm afraid of losing friends, 'cause I've lost one great friend of mine in the past. I just...don't wish to lose my best friend right now. Especially not at this point of time whereby I know both of us are emotionally hurt right now. I wish I can still somehow, at some point of time be able to make you smile and talk with you and crap with you. Remember how we said that we'll go drinking together? I want to make that come true. And I believe I can make that come true someday. Even though the wait might be long, but I believe I can do it if I try my best. So please, don't leave twitter/fb, don't leave me will ya? )':

오후 11:24

2011년 2월 23일 수요일

http://www.allkpop.com/2011/02/alexander-kim-kibum-to-leave-u-kiss

the worst shit ever today.

this morning when mag unni sms me to tell me about it, i still hoped that it'll just be a rumor...

but still, i cried when i reach work place..

i told myself, that they're having their comeback stage soon, they won't leave right?

but hell no... when i reach home to see this article it feels like thousand and thousand of knifes are stabbing RIGHT IN THE CENTER OF MY HEART!

it fucking hurts and i fucking cried and it felt as though i'm falling soon...

it's the same fucking feeling that i got when i knew about the lawsuit between TVXQ...

yes, they're not my bias or anything. my bias is soohyun.

BUT what got me loving u-kiss was actually them as a whole group! and i mean it. WHOLE GROUP!

those who went to their fanmeet with me for their 'without you' album would know that i didn't have a bias at first. i loved all members just the same..

i supported all SEVEN! i loved all SEVEN! Whatever I do, I think and do it for all SEVEN!

I don't mind if they just...add two more members to the group to make it NINE.

but really, why must xander and kibum leave?

I respect their decision for leaving... I don't hate them nor am I angry with them for leaving, just that...my heart hurts...

frankie's a good manager.

when he pop by me and racy told him we hungry and he went to buy drinks + toast from toastbox for us..

then racy jokingly say she want eat calamari, and he really went to buy for us..

thank you.

오후 11:48

2011년 2월 22일 화요일

work today and he morning shift!

damn sadded y'know! ): somemore when he went for break he didn't walk to staircase there or what.

then i keep looking here and there and ain't in the mood to work.

then when it's about time his break should be ending i still kept looking here and there and almost gave up hoping that he'll walk past me to the toilet or something -.-

then suddenly got someone pull my hair then i realize its him.

and he turned back and laugh haha. then racy was looking at him then me and laugh at me lol.

but well, when he going back home he didn't even walk past me sia zzz... that made me down lol.

then work and stood at the front with racy.

then taught her how to say numbers in chinese and she's so funny!

working with her really make me laugh a lot hahaha.

she keep on forgetting number 4 leh! hahaha. and the way she pronounce them lol.

we sort of played and slacked around during work then frankie pass by as well.

and i was like peeking from the cashier to see if he still talking to mei.

then when he saw me pop my head he like playing with me, pop his head from the wall sia lol.

and yeah i think thats all?

oh! after i got changed i walk out of toilet and just nice racy walking in and we both got shocked and laughed hahaha.

then took picture on her iphone and we laughed again hahaha.

and yeah bus home after that.

i think tumblr quite cool.

i love reblogging things from there.

so many of what i wanted to say lol.

오후 11:20

2011년 2월 21일 월요일

had work today at 11.30 and yeah.

during my break xiaomei came over and bought Eskimo's Caramel Milk tea for me, thanks girl!

then had a talk with winnie, mei and jiayi.

told her about the reasons why we don't like her etc.

then she seems alright at first, but well it's not, i mean, would you be alright if you realize that all you did was like a nuisance or what to them?

not long after she cried.

my first time seeing her cry, and i felt bad.

very bad at that point of time that i think i'm going to cry out as well.

but can see that the r/s between her and mei and her and hua gotten a bit better.

can tell that hua now is not really giving her 'attitude' when talking to her and then for mei, can see that both of them can talk more comfortably now.

but somehow, i still feel...

idkw but i think she might ignore me, hate me, idk....

anyway frankie came down today and then he was talking about xiao-chen thing with mei.

then i was laughing and then xiao-chen was like looking over at us lol.

then ya. thats it for today.

oh. and if i were to work ytd, i might have been injured or something.

the big mixer fell off ytd while it's in use and hua was saying that lucky got one diy customer want him pack their cake, then he go take the cake.

if not his leg cfm fractured.

then he say if i got work ytd he cfm ask me go take then he cfm will block my way for awhile and cfm just nice i will get hit wth sia.

and as expected spoon off today ):

if only he did work today and we got to take the same bus, i might not feel so down. sigh.

and why must hua....bring up the past? sigh...

오후 11:47

2011년 2월 20일 일요일

Didn't went to work today, texted frankie to tell him.

then i guess he asked mei to work early today and mei sms-ed me asking if i'm alright or not.

and she said she'll tell me the results after her talk with frankie.

then yeah she sms-ed me the results and said that she suggested we all (mei racy hua hao me) to have a talk together.

and she said if i still not feeling well tmr then the next day they will tell me the results of the talk.

i hope everything goes well, and i think i'm turning up for it.

at one point of time, i feel like i'm killing winnie at the back.

feel like i'm trying to ruin her or w/e.

but at the same time i don't wish for things to turn out so ugly.

i think i'm really a two-faced bitch.

being close to her at one time and then saying things about her the next.

is this the real me?

오후 6:41

2011년 2월 19일 토요일

woke up around 1pm or so.

bathed and headed to collect my new specs ^^

i somehow think i still look weird, but better than my old one hahaha.

then had lunch with winnie and cs.

after that chatted and then winnie started her work.

nothing much happened today yeah.

had curry chicken for dinner and ya lor.

now i no more money alr omg.

and, i'm a bad person, a bad friend, a two-faced bitch.

오후 9:13

2011년 2월 18일 금요일

woken up by a call in the morning and guess who it was? weihoong. lol.

then he ask me wake up say i going to be late for work.

and guess what, it's actually meant for winnie. lol. funny or what.

then had work and yeah.

nothing much happened. but oh well, something still happened ):

but i think it's only right if i tell Mei the truth right? Regarding what Frankie told me.

during his break i was standing at the fridge there tying cream and guess what?

he walk over to me and talk to me hahaha. then he walk off and came back again and look at the cakes and decoration we have, hehe.

then yeah, i think that's about what happened today.

and before i knock off, i saw that guy again..

and yeah. idkw but i got fearful again and tensed up that i don't wish to leave icing room.

partly is 'cause who knows i might see him at the bus interchange 'cause he confirm is take bus 8 back, and 81 is just beside it...

so i changed and waited till 8.30 or so and bought ice-cream with jiayi and yiyuan.

i bought cookies and cream, jiayi bought choc mint and yiyuan bought mixed berry or something one.

felt better after eating ice-cream (:

then checked my phone and got two missed calls and one sms.

so i checked the sms and it's from racy saying that frankie is bugging her to tell him what happened to mei.

then i called frankie back and he talked to me for 14mins!

and yeah, regarding mei and winnie mostly.

then when i went back shop mei ask who i talking to and i said to a friend.

and omg. to think xiaochen is like a spy for frankie lah. sigh.

anyway, waited till 11pm and then head off to take bus.

mei was very angry ):

then he boarded same bus as me and yeah.

trip home was great 'cause he kept on making me lol.

he keep trying to poke my waist, luckily i dodged it hahaha.

going to collect specs tmr ^^

can't wait man! wheeee ~

오후 11:55

2011년 2월 17일 목요일

had work at 10.30am today.

then frankie started talking to me regarding bida2.

he talk for very long leh and ya lor.

like what hua and racy told me, he's like defending her?

anyway, nothing much happened at work.

during his break, he walk past me and he went 'oh oh oh' at me and i look back, he was like smiling LOL.

then work and damn slack.

then hua and hao was like teasing me and him.

and i had a bet with hua!

1st round is if he can replenish 3 cakes within 5mins then i'll have to walk over to toastbox and say 'hello' to spoon!

then 1st round i lost so i walk over halfway liao, i turn behind hua was squatting down and ask me go back! LOL.

he say he scared i cry -.- and in my heart i was like 'i already started talking to him few days back. lol. saying a hello to him ain't that hard' hahaha.

then 2nd round got 5cakes, 13min and he LOST! whoooooohoooo!

then he keep on 'hpmh' me 'cause i won hahaha.

oh! during break hao keep on playing with the nicca ricci perfume sia!

then make until the fridge there perfume smell so strong lol.

jiayi got an angbao from spoon and inside is just a paper which wrote '88888 dollars for you. gave too much.' LMAO!

then hua was like saying 'jiayi why you go take? should give zhanying mah' LOL!

8pm ended work and while i'm eating banana cake at the back he walking back to the shop from toilet then we look at each other and he mouthed 'end work ah?' and i nod my head haha.

then headed to buy old chang kee with jiayi since we both craving for fishballs hahaha.

then sit at stairs and chatted and i think we both really got a lot in common sia.

then bought ice-cream from new zealand natural and omg choc mint ^^

super yummy i tell you. i'm so fly like a G6 when i ate that ~

then watched a bit of fairytail with jiayi and i think its quite nice?

then 10.30 and off we go to take bus home.

boarded same bus as him.

then first thing he did when he sat beside me = poke my waist -.-

and i was like looking at him and say 'you want die ah' and he look at me then laugh. LOL.

then he talk about the angpao thing. he said 'actually i want to give it to you but when i walk over you not there liao so i just gave it to the xiao meimei (jiayi) and she really thought i give her angpao she very happy even say thankyou to me hahaha.' and i was like wth sia you hahahah.

then he also say he might be transferred to make bread instead of coffee 'cause they want to train someone to make coffee hahaha.

at first i hear wrongly i thought he'll be transferred to another outlet sia. scare me.

i also told him about the bet with hua and he was laughing hahaha.

so yeah, today's a great day though i'm tired ^^

오후 11:23

2011년 2월 16일 수요일

woke up at 7am+ in a bad mood 'cause i'm very tired.

headed to bishan pray grandpa.

then ate lots of fishballs! ^^

then headed home.

prepared and head out to tamp meet chinmei!

and when i left house i somewhat got a feeling i will meet him on bus and really sia! ^^

boarded same bus and yeah.

then i suddenly ask him what brand of cigarattes he smoke then i think he said marlboro (?) and he ask me why i ask.

then i just say nothing and he poke me in the arm again -.- LOL.

then alighted from bus and he ask if i eat lunch alr or not and i say no 'cause i meeting chinmei for lunch.

then he laugh and push me lightly with his arm hahaha.

ate bbq chicken and waaaah ~

me and chinmei talked about our sec sch days, how we're like fangirls sia! hahaha.

really damn huai nian those days whereby we keep on spotting for our seniors LOL!

a really great lunch ^^

and i finally bought a new earpiece 'cause old one sort of spoiled ):

and i also finally made a new specs!

after wearing it for like 5years?! HAHAHA.

오후 5:34

2011년 2월 15일 화요일

Headed to work and saw him while i walk past the stairs to take escalator.

stood at the back and during his break he walk past me and tapped me on my shoulder.

then practically today was a slack day, great. if not i really will die or faint lol.

so hua really got to make those cakes one by one hahaha. no one help him leh.

then he do until around 5pm or what then go for his break o.o

min came over, she bought ice-milo and cheesecake from yamazaki for me.

i gave her one fully-filled cream puff taken from the freezer which i placed it in ^^

work and well really bored lah. but better than busy, i guess.

talked and crapped a lot with hua, hao, yi yuan and racy hahaha.

jiayi came over for a lil' while. i hope she's alright eh.

and that hua keep teasing me -.-

with my facebook status wth sia. hahaha.

bus home as usual.

and he didn't avoid me ^^

he sat beside me then he ask me 'you tired ah?' which he usually won't ask?

then i say 'yeah. worked for 10days straight.' and he say no off?

and i replied 'though i tmr not working, but i still got to wake up very early.' then he was like wow. lol.

then we kept quiet and i sort of fell asleep for a short while until the bus jerks.

then i wake up, he look at me for a while then look straight.

and i ask him he tired also ah and he say yes, make coffee very tiring lol.

after that he started poking my arm again then i use my finger cover and he go poke my finger lol.

then he suddenly poked my waist and i was like 'i'm scared of itch' and he say he's scared as well haahaha.

then before he alighted, he poke me again and i poke him back then we both laughed.

so, a great day (: hehe.

오후 11:38

2011년 2월 14일 월요일

It's V day and he's not working.

idkw but i think it's the side-effect of working for 9days straight without any off days or what thats why i'm like that.

i feel so tired, feel like i'm going to faint.

when sister, germaine and gina (GinGer in short, twins) came to visit me today, i almost cried infront of them when they ask why i look so dead. when i told them that i'm tired.

then during my break, i went to the staircase exit near Sol Mart and sat down.

without eating anything, just a cup of milk tea, i sat there for 30mins and cried a lil.

esp when i sms 'where u? can come the staircase exit near Sol Mart? i need a hug ):' to sister and she called back few mins later.

but she's at tamp mall. but at least she bothered to call.

and after that she did drop by again and then sent me an sms '*hugs* hope you feel better soon *insert heart*'

jiayi wrote me a valentines' day letter, thanks love ^^

it was totally busy today that time at work past by very fast.

and the fridge is damn empty! only like 6 cakes in TOTAL left.

ALL valentines' day cake are sold out.

ALL DIY cake except for 4'' round shape are sold out as well.

so can you imagine?

and ahkai shifu was saying 'tmr hua confirm die. he ownself need to replenish the cakes until siao.' and he also say 'faster sell more cakes hit 4k sales then i treat you all eat DinTaiFung.' and we did it! ^^

but oh well, when we did hit 4k he already left for home lol.

BUT must state clearly to ahkai shifu, that only people who slogged their guts out and stayed back longer than they should on V day can be treated by him haha.

and that will be ahkai shifu himself (he stayed back 3.5hrs without any OT pay leh), hao (stayed till closing with us if not there will only be me and mei), Jiayi, Yiyuan, Racy (stayed till 9.30pm just to help us somemore), Mei and me!

panda, min, chinmei, min's supervisor, linhui (no one else i guess) dropped by and i'm sorry if my attitude is sucky to you all or what. but heck, it's really busy ): didn't mean it.

took bus home.

and i didn't know hao taking same bus too sia.

then sat beside him and he also stay pasir ris liao! near loyang point.

lol. and that's why he these few days keep eat mac,

'cause it's near his place now. haha.

then chatted about hua and bida2 and yeah.

work stuffs hahaha.

saw a doggy at the lift there.

it seems to be lost or something ):

then it looks quite scared leh. then it starting abit scared of me then sniff my leg and lick my leg.

but a pity, i can't bring it back ): i feel like i'm a bad person.

then went home sisters' friends still at our house.

then they asked me to try their cooking.

then i ask them 'got kimchi?' and they took out one unopened packet of kimchi and gave me.

then they say it's my reward for singing when i went Cash Studio with them.

wow. i thought they just say say only sia. to think they still remember it (:

and it made me happy haahaha.

'cause at least when i'm hungry at home i got the kimchi to eat. just need to cook white rice can liao.

i hope tmr will be a better day for me during work.

and stop those negative thinking of mine.

but...i really afraid he will avoid me again ):

so yah, tmr better not be a busy day for us. assholes.

오후 11:27

2011년 2월 13일 일요일

today work from 11.30am to 10.30pm and was busy through out.

like shit, serious okay!

all want to do DIY cake wtf.

then glad that there's Racy, Hua, Jiayi and Yiyuan working with me ~

basically 'cause they helped me out when I'm like 'WOW! WTF! I'M SO FUCKING BUSY MY HANDS AND LEGS ARE GONNA GET TANGLED UP' y'know ~

basically the busiest person should be Racy yeah. she got to work more hours than us, due to contract.

and yeah she's kind enough to help out until 9.30pm like that then leave when she's just suppose to work till 9pm.

initially she need not stay till 9pm but danyang went home and no choice.

why can't bida2 wait till she finish her break then let her go home?

it's like Racy and me was damn fucking busy at the front and nobody standing at the back leh!

lucky got hua and jiayi to help when got people want to buy things from the fridge.

basically its just busy all day until i'm going to faint lah.

(and wtf, winnie just commented on my status and say HE! really off tmr. FUCK _l_)

at night hua was telling me that i can look at the opposite direction (toastbox) when I'm running out of energy.

i ask him why and he said 'cause just now he saw him looking at me.

ok, that made me happy but wtf...

i didn't get to take same bus as him today -.-

i mean, we both went off around the same time and end up? he's not on the bus i'm on!!!

if he really does avoid me again, i swear SWEAR! i will scream right at him in his face!

okay, maybe not scream but shout!

I'm so going to ask him 'WHYTHEFUCKDIDYOUTALKTOMEAGAINWHENYOUDECIDEDTOAVOIDMEANDTHEN SUDDENLYAVOIDEDMEAGAINANDTHENTALKTOMEAGAINANDACTEDSOCLOSETOME BUTENDUPYOUSTILLAVOIDEDMEFORTHETHIRDTIME?! YOUTHINKITSFUNTODOTHIS?! YOUTHINKILIKEITIFYOUTALKTOMETHENSUDDENLYAVOIDMEAGAIN?! WHATDOYOUREALLYTAKEMEFORYOUIDIOT!'

okay, i think i really need some chill pill to cool myself down... i'm kinda agitated right now, maybe i'm too tired...

now after being angry, i feel like crying :'( damnit! fuck!

oh oh!

and there's this lady, she did a DIY in a hurry and guess what?

her boyf. proposed to her and the answer lies in the cake she decorated!

and omg! she said yes! *loves*

then me and racy was like 'omg so happy for them' hahaha.

and we even told the lady to invite us to her wedding LOL! daebak!

오후 11:39

this is what's going through in my mind for the past two days?

sometimes i really wonder, will he suddenly not talk to me again?

and i also did wonder, if he'll surprise me or something during Valentines' day which is like 1 more day away?

and i wonder, if he ever know that Valentine day is one day away.

also, i wonder what's going on his mind...

he started talking to me again and i'm glad.

it's nearing Valentines' day, for some reason I'm feeling glad as well.

but what I'm afraid of is, on Valentines' day itself or maybe today, he'll suddenly not talk to me again.

you know, things can happen so suddenly..

i also thought, what would I do and how would I feel if he were to leave in May or June.

Would i still be that happy at work?

Or rather, would I even still be working there?

'cause I just told hua that I might work till May or June 'cause he was asking me.

sigh. i should stop filling my mind with such negative thoughts ):

be contented with the relationship I have with Spoon now, yes.

오전 1:17

work at 3pm today.

then yeah was busy and all.

oh yah! i remember something from ytd.

i got cake smashed again! -.-by hao again lol.

we're eating the love & roses valentine day cake at baker area.

then all of them was standing at basin there and i was opp them.

then hao stood beside me and talk and i was looking at him then suddenly he use his hand to hold my hand and SMACK!

the chocolate moose cake is on my face -.- lucky i was near the tissue sia! hahaha.

then we all had a good laugh and after that i use the water spray at him and he hold the pail with water and then make my head LOL.

anyway back to Sat.

well yeah i worked again and yeah.

hua was angry at bida2 'cause bida2 didn't even ask if there's the cake available for tmr's two orders and she just accepted them.

and he said i'm his spy LMAO! cool or what.

then when i stand back at cashier there she say she cannot tahan liao then move to the back.

i was like wtf lah but nvm.

then suddenly like so busy like that then hua and hao was sort of shouting 'oi! cashier busy lah' and bida2 still sitting behind there resting her head -.-

then lucky got hua to help me a lil bit haha. thanks! ^^

and yeah. i think that's all for today?

oh ya on the bus.

same as Fri, also alot people board from interchange.

then i sat outside and move in when i saw him at the stop.

but guess what, he was walking behind this uncle and that uncle sat beside me -.-

and his expression was like ~(>_<)~ when he saw the uncle seated beside me LOL.

then when it's at his stop, he turn back look at me then smile haha.

well, at least that made me feel better haha.

오전 12:02

2011년 2월 12일 토요일

heated up rou gan to bring to work place for racy and mei since they said they wanted to eat it.

then when bus at the interchange, i saw Spoon alighting from bus 19! LOL.

knew that he's going to be late again. haha.

then stayed at shop for awhile then they told me that dan yang not going work, so yiyuan got to help out.

so i sms frankie and ask him if i able to work or not and he said yes so yeah.

accompanied jiayi mei and hao to food court eat.

after that started work at 6pm.

felt so sleepy and there's nothing to do though i'm doing something. lol.

then stood at cashier, and yeah.

winnie say what she wouldn't be happy for me if i were to patch back or what with spoon, 'cause she said he's a rude person?

she said if i stay back with her eat curry every night/most night then i would know.

and she said when he see pretty girls he will ... well, she didn't cont. that part -.-

but yeah i get what she meant. but, ain't most guys like that? i mean like.. yah..

but idkw i'm kinda affected by it (?) and my mood started going down.

partly also 'cause i was looking at his direction and he like never saw me? idk lah.

then yeah. i cut the sticker cut and cut anyhow cut until i cut my thumb -.- daebak or what.

so damn pissed and so i ask winnie where's the plaster and she said use finish so i went to buy.

then bus 81 a lot of people and yeah.

i didn't sit in until the bus reach the stop he usually take from.

then i move in and i thought to myself, if fated, he will be able to sit beside me.

and well yeah, he's the last to board the bus but he's seated beside me o.o

then he told me that his off might be on monday. he said not confirm yet 'cause he say someone saw the schedule and told him about it.

and then i ask him which month will he be going back and he said it's either may or latest by june confirm go back.

and well, who wouldn't feel down right? whose heart wouldn't sink right?

and then he said he'll open toastbox in China and then invite me to wash dishes.

and i was like 'what? u sure? (regarding me wash dishes)' and he say 'no no, be cashier. or i teach you how to make coffee and tea.'

then i say 'sure.' and he say 'are you sure you can hold the stuffs?' 'cause they're heavy and i say can ~ lol.

well, that did make me smile though (:

heated up spaghetti which sixth aunt cooked few days back? lol.

wonder if i'll get diarrhea or something later hahaha.

now i'm full. and sleepy.

오전 12:22

2011년 2월 10일 목요일

had work today at 2pm.

well, i reached early like really early and just nice jiayi was going for her break.

ate fish porridge with her and chatted (:

then started work and yeah.

was standing at the back chatting with jiayi when spoon suddenly walk over stand beside me and say 'ji da bian ah' LMAO!

jiayi was like 'WHAT?!' hahaha damn funny.

then after awhile i was telling shifu don't put the red red thing on the biscuit 'cause it will drop out after we wrap then customers won't buy.

then he suddenly walk over and say put more nicer LOL!

shifu was like look at him then look at me and say 'one say don't put another say put more, what you both want me to do?' LOL!

then he also lend jiayi his name tag again and jiayi this time really wear it hahaha.

then when he need go back to work to make coffee liao, he took back haha.

then celebrated jiayi's birthday ^^

the cake made for her is super nice! hahaha.

then we sang birthday song for her and took group pictures haha.

after that erm mei was doing rose using icing sugar.

then i tried it out. i used right hand and it seems weird, so i used left hand and amazingly i'm okay with it!

then i did finish one whole rose and wow! they all complimented that it's nice ^^

after that did somemore and yeah.

while doing halfway i was tired so i look up and just nice he was looking at me so i decided i should not look away ('cause winnie said before that i'm actually unintentionally avoiding him when i turn away knowing that he's looking at me) so yeah.

then he look at me i look at him he raised his brows i raised mine back then i made the scrunched up (?) face at him then he did back to me! OMG HAHAHA!

after that we laugh then continue doing our stuffs.

closing mei ask me to help talitha with the fridge first so i went.

then i tried to open the cupboard which contains the cloth to cover the fridge.

i guess i'm too short so i'm having trouble opening it then i think spoon was laughing at me!!

anyway, yeah with the help of talitha we manage to open it and yeah.

closed the shop already and damn it, i forget change back my shoes to slipper -.-

thought of u-turn back to change but oh well lucky i didn't.

'cause i boarded the bus and then just nice i saw him walking to the bus stop!

if i were to u-turn and change, then i wouldn't be able to board the same bus as him!

then he sat beside me again as usual and this time he lean super close to me LOL!

after that he took my earpiece and wanted to listen then i say 'you understand meh?' and he say ya LOL.

then after awhile he gave me back 'cause the earpiece too small for him and i say 'you don't understand right' then he say 'i understand ~' LOL.

then after that he was looking at the other side so i look at him and say 'sleeping ah?' then he turn and look at me then suddenly say 'oh! i this morning never bathe' and i was like wth -.- hahaha.

then he say 'cause when he wake up, he's almost late for work!

and he even go smell himself LOL! then he say 'hmm, really smelly' LMAO!

and i asked him when's his off for next week (i hope it's not on valentines' day) and he say he still don't know 'cause they will only know their schedule for next week on sunday.

but he did ask me when i'm working and i told him hahaha.

then yeah he alighted and yeah lol.

Happy Birthday Jia Yi!

i forgot to mention one funny thing.

while i just started work, we saw one handsome/cute guy.

then he was standing at subway there waiting for his friend.

and Racy was trying to take a picture of him but then just when she's about to do that,

the guy was walking over with his friend and end up we all laughed!

and Racy's face turn red man! omg hahaha.

and Monday is winnie's off also hua's off.

then Mei say hua spend valentine with winnie and i was saying but hua already don't like her liao, spend what valentines day?

then i added, unless they will be spending a black valentine, and we both laughed hahaha.

오후 11:26

2011년 2월 9일 수요일

work today.

bida bida made me angry today at work but after that i'm ok alr lol.

min say spoon was looking at me/my direction while she's buying ice-milo lol.

she even say he look at me for 20secs! LOL!

they did diy cake and yeah.

(anyway i'm having a great chat with Racy on facebook hahaha)

so yeah. work and got few times i look up he was like looking at me lah. but oh well.

then nothing much happened.

just that when frankie came, bida bida suddenly so hardworking.

so i let bida bida take the credits by slacking and talking to hua LOL!

then we keep talking about bida bida hahaha.

jiayi and yiyuan came over then just nice spoon was taking something from outside,

and jiayi really go borrow his name tag and wear LMAO!

then he was like laughing hahaha.

i asked hua questions regarding CC & A.

i thought he'll reply me with a joke or what but no eh.

he sort of replied seriously and then he also said about me and spoon.

saying that from the start, he knew we aren't right for each other or what.

'cause maintaining a long-distance relationship is sweet yet very tedious at the same time.

it's sweet 'cause unlike living together seeing each other often, that sweet feeling of loving the other party will still be there. if live together, soon there'll be quarrels.

tedious is 'cause as said, it's a long-distance relationship and we can't get to see each other often and it's really hard to maintain one.

what he said really makes sense yeah.

then ended work and i skipped one bus 'cause i wanted to board the same one as him.

starting i wonder if its a good thing or not but i think it is.

'cause he auto sit beside me.

then i ask he want eat chocolate not 'cause ahkai shifu gave me one big bag! hahaha.

then after that when its nearing his stop he press the bus bell hard then we look at each other and laugh hahaha.

then he say he don't want press lightly, later need press twice paiseh haha.

then he put his left hand in his right hand sleeve then poke my arm!

then i cover with my fingers and say 'later you say i fat again!'

then he reply 'later you eat those chocolates confirm fat!' HAHAHA!

then i keep use my fingers kiap his finger which is poking me then dao his stop liao.

so he alighted and yeah.

min and yang fetch me today ^^

Being nice to someone you dislike doesn't mean you're a fake. It means you are mature enough to tolerate your dislike towards them.

오후 11:59

Just few days back i was wondering why i didn't get to go work together with him.

Frankie this morning sms me say 'z.ying if you too tired, please come work at 3pm instead.' but i insisted on 1.30pm work and it's a good thing (:

'cause while i'm on the bus, when it's nearing his stop idk i was looking at his place o.o

then when the bus reach the stop he boarded it O.O

and he sat beside me. at first we're both quiet.

then he ask me why i cried that day, and i sort of told him what happened.

i said i saw someone whom i don't want to see, then he say your ex boyf. ah? and i say no. then he ask guy or girl, i say guy then he say you see him bu shuang then cry ah? i say well, yeah. i see him i very bu shuang, but more of fear. then he ask why? did he do something to you? and i say well, sort of. and we stopped there.

then he ask i eat lunch alr not i say no (i think) lol. then i ask him and he say no as well.

then i got tell him i don't want eat, so i say i pei him eat.

then went foodcourt and he go buy lotus soup for me to drink also.

then he go buy rice + meat, potato and cabbage.

then he use his fork poke the potato and give me eat. as in, feed me?!

starting i don't want, then he bring it closer to me so i ate it.

then after that he poke the meat and i eat also.

then i drink the lotus soup and it's really quite nice leh.

then he wanted to take cabbage for me eat then i say no, i don't like veggie then he laugh and wanted to take potato but i say i full hahaha.

then he finish his rice, i still slowly drinking soup.

and he say if i don't finish before he finish he will 'open my head and pour the soup in' LMAO!

then i drink quickly and ask him i just drink finish soup can liao right? and he say ya, the ingredients all these he will settle for me (by eating them) hahaha.

then after that we sort of rush to work 'cause left 5 more mins.

and yeah, we auto distance ourselves from each other after we reach our shop level lol.

Min bought me a TVXQ lanyard ^^ happy ttm that i screamed and show jiayi! hahaha.

then idkw i was like dancing a lil' bit or what when wanling and desiree came!

then they was like 'zhanying stop dancing' OMG DAMN PAISEH SIA!

then chatted a while and yeah hahaha.

then took bus home.

he boarded same bus as me and sat beside me.

then he was asking what i listening to so i say songs lor.

then he say he want listen as well then i ask 'you can understand meh?' and he nodded his head LOL!

so we share the music together and he was like nodding his head and say he understand LMAO! cute or what?!

then he was actually leaning on me and i say i got so comfortable to lean on meh? and he say ya 'cause he tired wth LOL!

then when it's nearing his stop he suddenly look at me and smile so i ask him smile what.

then i say 'this time, you think u can press the bus bell with only one try?' LOL!

then he laugh and purposely press the bell with 'force' LMAO! totally funny.

then yeah bidded goodbye and just nice brother call.

he still remember about that incident which i told him about, that i'm afraid.

but somehow not ytd (:

but yeah they still fetch me lah hahaha.

Thanks Min and Xena for being concerned and anxious over what happened to me :') *hugs you girls* ♥

Thanks brother for willing to come fetch me, worrying for my safety even though you're sick (:

Thanks Frankie, for worrying that i'll be too tired to start work early and remembering that I fall sick often in the past (:

Thanks Jiayi and Winnie, for worrying about me the day before, and being glad to know that I'm happy again yesterday (:

Thanks Sarah, Chinmei and Panda for wishing that I'll be happy and being glad to know that I'm happy when I'm with Spoon ♥

Thanks Spoon, for making my day that happy. Just being like what we are now, can make me feel contented already ♥

오전 12:45

2011년 2월 8일 화요일

you know, i think this fear is building up instead of resting down in me.

due to that incident..

on the 5th that guy appeared at the shop, i cried at the stairs after he left.

if not for Spoon's presence, jiayi's concern + accompaniment and hua's jokes,

i think i'll be super down and not laughing.

then on the 6th i was okay. nothing much happened.

just that at night i think spoon is avoiding me again w/e.

and just now, on the 7th i waited for winnie end work then go off together.

she waited bus with me and she told me one thing.

she said that ytd while she was walking to bus interchange, she saw that guy walk past her in the opp direction.

after she said that, i was like totally scared. i mean yeah.

it's a good thing i left early with hua and racy after work if not...

so just now i waited for the last bus then board 'cause the 2nd last bus got some blonde hair guys which i'm afraid might be his friends or something. and yes, i think too much or what idk but i just want to play safe...

when i reach home i said this to brother 'i pay you $20, until end of this month you come and fetch me at bus stop after i end work can or not? 'cause winnie said ytd she saw that guy walk past her in opp direction at night when she end work. and lucky i went off early.' then i started to cry.

and i know brother is concerned about me and he agreed.

i really hope this fear will go away soon.

i mean, yah.

Spoon, where are you when I needed you now? today? every night? forever?

you won't be here, will you? no.

오전 12:29

2011년 2월 7일 월요일

had breakfast with jiayi and suddenly spoon appeared.

my eyes was like wide open when he suddenly talk to me and ask why i cried ytd.

then started work at 10am.

i don't like bida bida!!! idkw but bida bida make me pissed off today!

6pm accompanied jiayi to compass take butter with agnes.

then cabbed back again and me and agnes headed to eat bbq chicken.

then chatted with agnes 'bout alot of things and i'm still pissed...

idk if it's 'cause i didn't get enough sleep or what.

9pm returned to work and yeah.

thanks hua for helping me to wash the chair.

ended work and i know if i'm not on that fucking bus, he will board it right?

i know he saw me on the bus, and i saw him waiting for the bus.

but i didn't see him board the bus at all...

is he... going to avoid me again? like what i predicted? talking to me for a while, then avoiding me suddenly again...

fuck, i hate this ㅠ.ㅠ

anyway, Racy is funny.

she thought banana in chinese is called lanjiao (fyi, it's actually the guy's private part huh) and she said that got once there's this aunty who wanted to know what is our banana cake 'cause she can't read english.

so Racy go say 'lanjiao dan gao' instead of 'xiang jiao dan gao' and the aunty look at her and just smile LOL!

hilarious man! and i swear, listening to that make me happy. hahaha.

even mr bean aunty also laugh when she heard about it!!

Sometimes, I wish you're gone from my life. But at the same time, I know that my heart doesn't want and won't wish for you to be gone from my life... Sigh...

오전 12:06

2011년 2월 6일 일요일

Work ytd from 10am till 11pm.

Cried at the stairs with jiayi accompanying me due to some reason which idk if i'd want to blog it out here or not.

Spoon's presence cheered me up.

basically 'cause when i'm crying, idkw but my heart was 'reaching out' for Spoon.

then he just nice walked in to the stairs and saw me crying.

that's like so embarrassing.

i've never cried in front of him, never.

i'm glad he did ask what happened and even patted my head.

if not for hua's teasing and jiayi telling me, i would STILL think that it's jiayi who patted my head, seriously.

and hua is like... keep teasing me non-stop and say what next time he not in good mood, want me stand in front of him so he can be reminded of that scene and laugh again -.-

i highly suspect that he was seated at the top of the stairs watching us.

'cause when me and jiayi went in, there was nobody -.-

anyway yeah. i think i'm feeling much better already.

hopefully this type of thing won't happen again.

that i won't see that guy ever, i mean yeah.

irdk what i'd do if jiayi was not with me. really.

오전 1:24

2011년 2월 4일 금요일

woke up and went to meet jiayi for breakfast before she start work.

ordered the same things and we chatted.

and yeah, i realize it's always enjoyable chatting with her ^^

so, i left for home at around 11+ reaching home around 12.15 and my sis was like 'faster go change. need go out soon.'

so no choice got changed and head out again.

wore the dress which i always wanted to try wearing out, haha.

met up with gina and germaine (they're TWINS! funny twins!) at tanah merah then headed to cuppage located at Somerset to go Cash Studio.

passed by Forever21 and i feel like buying the stuffs there! i mean, really.

when we reached there, i didn't have any mood to sing.

basically i'm tired. plus the songs there ain't what i wanted!

mostly it's all jap songs and even if there's dongbang songs, it's all in jap and no romanization or what.

i can't sing w/o it lol. i mean, for jap songs lah.

'cause i can't even read jap characters! but kor characters, yes.

and they tried hard to execute their plans of wanting me to sing song lol.

they even bribed me with food! saying what 'if you sing one whole song, then i'll treat u ice-cream' hahaha.

even more exaggerating, 'if you sing one whole song, i'll buy you one tub of kimchi' HAHAHA!

only until when the twins left for the toilet, i sang with only my sister in the room.

then next, one of the twins stayed inside the room with us and i sang.

then all 3 of them in the room and i sang and they was like so happy O.O

then yeah i suppose that's all?

after that they headed home and me and sister headed to tamp1!

thankful that jiayi did sms me and tell me he did work today ^^

sis wanted to eat toast so yeah.

didn't know agnes was there as well and when we saw each other,

we hugged and it feels so great ^^

went to sit down at toastbox while sis go order.

then when she came back she was like 'eh! he got notice you leh. he wanted to give discount one lor, but hor the girl cashier press too fast then never give -.-' LMAO!

then chatted with agnes again while sis went home first.

then winnie said she wanted drink so helped her buy aloe vera.

called for xiao-chen 'cause i see him going to walk away from cashier area.

then i tell him i want order the aloe vera drink and he say ok then walked off.

then it's spoon who take over cashier while the girl go prepare.

so he can't find the key ('cause he too long never do cashiering liao i think) and need the girl find for him lol.

then he auto give me discount and keyed in his staff number!

still remember last time he still need look at his card to key in haha.

and to think he still remember i don't remember my staff number ~

so yeah, he smiled at me when i passed him the money and it somehow made me happier (:

but i think i look stupid. 'cause i asked him 'where to wait for the drink' LOL!

then he say the place i standing at can already.

so yeah. then chatted with agnes! thank goodness she accompany me go order man.

and after that we went to the back of the fridge then chat.

and told her 'bout that incident and yeah.

her comment is super hilarious xDD

and she say she feel like slapping (?) spoon when she saw him ):

sigh.

anyway yeah.

knew racy was angry over bida bida (don't know correct spelling not. our code name for someone.) so i sent her a text say 'hey. cheer up! and drink more water kay! haha' and just nice she was checking her phone!

when she saw it she was like looking at me and smiling (:

then jiayi's mum came and whoa! she looks young man! like really, so pretty!

then wanted to wait for racy knock off since frankie let her go at 8pm 'cause she not feeling well.

then who knows mum just knocked off. end up racy ask me go first so yeah.

and me and jiayi's mum met! LOL!

and i think that's it for the day.

oh! and frankie gave me angpao ^^ hehe.

오후 9:52

2011년 2월 3일 목요일

It's CNY today!

woke at 7.30am bathe and get ready.

after preparations are done, i feel that i'm like an idol LOL.

anyway, cam-whored at home awhile before heading out to dad's side grandma house.

as usual they talk about my work -.- which i don't like.

anyway took pictures and it was fun! haha.

then headed to mum's side and cam-whored in the car.

reach there nothing do sit until i want sleep lol.

cam-whored and took pictures with relatives which are close to us.

then we finally got a picture taken with all five of our family members (:

then headed to don't know which relative house at marine parade there.

then meet those uncle aunties whom i never met before and collected angpaos there.

then cam-whore at the balcony. super cooling sia.

and i think that's it.

thought the money collected this year will be disappointing, but nope.

i think uncle or grandma (dad side) packed $50 for us!

in total angpao money only just crossed a hundred. lol. but ya lah, better than nothing lor.

now on skype with jiayi! hahaha.

and tmr we're going to have breakfast together again!

at toastbox again ^^ haha.

and hopefully, this time round can see him ~

if not i really can cry sia. i mean, not really cry lah but just sad lor.

anyway, we got one cousin (?) quite handsome leh! hahaha.

i'm going to add him on facebook now and his name is justin -.- LOL.

오후 8:39

2011년 2월 2일 수요일

Met up with jiayi for breakfast at toastbox at 8am.

well, didn't saw him ~

then 8.30 like that ahkai shifu came.

then he joined us for breakfast as well.

accompanied racy go bank in money haha.

(wtf -.- atm my mum is like nagging non-stop with my sister -.- why? money. zzz. fuck it sia.)

anyway, after we're back from the bank,

i changed and started at 10.30am instead.

(eh seriously, i'm starting to get pissed off by that bitch mum of mine. i swear. she's now comparing US to other people's daughter wtf.)

so, started work and chatted with jiayi about alot of things.

then it started to get so busy! i mean, really busy.

and for a moment, i thought he'll be coming work at like 10am or something 'cause winnie said that all of them (toastbox staffs) will be working today.

end up not. only xiaochen, xiuling, the aunty, dom, kk and taizi.

sian diao seriously when jiayi was helping me ask taizi when he was at our shop 'cause their electricity there stopped.

she ask him 'that what wangzi ah, he today never come ah?' then he say he off today then jiayi was like 'aiya. i wanted to borrow his nametag wear for once.' LOL! cute sia she.

then was quite disappointed lah. idkw either.

feel like i got a lot of things to ask him leh, but hor, idk what i want to ask either haha.

then work and work busy like hell.

toastbox good lor, end earlier than us leh!

and thanks for ah hua helping us in closing man. if not die.

so, i forgotten what i wanted to say. shit.

anyway yeah.

never went for reunion dinner 'cause work didn't end on time.

headed home instead.

and while i was walking with racy to bus interchange, we exchanged our contacts.

i called her, then she answer and we spoke through the phone and laughed when we're just beside each other LOL.

then when we're on bus, we sms each other haha.

racy: take care biatch. haha

me: haha. you take care too, motherfather :o

racy: okay PEACH i will! haha

me: great. haha. jiBYE ~ hahaha.

racy: bye. see you! :-)

LOL. so yeah. it was fun y'know.

urm, i think there's nothing more.

i want to sleep haha. but i stink leh. lol.

totally no mood for cny dkw.

오후 7:05

2011년 2월 1일 화요일

chinmei accompanied me to work.

then she accompanied me for lunch as well.

and well, thanks to winnie (-.-) i didn't have my wallet with me.

lucky ytd i lent mai $5 then she today return if not i don't need eat liao.

'cause she brought home my wallet ytd when i left it at the shop -.-

then guess what time she come today? evening time -.-

anyway, i hope jiayi's really feeling better.

was irritated for some reason, idkw either.

esp when i saw CCTV? idk.

frankie's being lame again lol.

then he knew we're hungry (me and racy) then he bought breads from breadtalk for us to eat! haha.

the nachos one nice sia! omg.

then yeah i think that's about it.

idk if he worked till 10.30 or 11pm today ):

but from what i see, it's until 10.30 but oh well.

didn't get to take same bus as him.

tired. hungry.

tmr meeting jiayi for breakfast at 8am before heading to work ^^

오후 11:54

was almost late. so sms frankie that i'll start at 11.30am instead.

then reach work place started work.

and yeah, it's raining still. got to walk in the rain to work.

then during break, i was with jiayi.

and xiaoxue gave us $50 and we went to buy gong cha!

yay! daebak hahaha.

then just nice jiayi also got bring home-packed food so yeah.

we brought our food to the stairs and ate then chat.

had a great chat with her, 'cause i just feel very comfortable telling her things which are on my mind (:

then back to work. and yeah.

mood wasn't that great during work though.

and i did the typing of stock checks today. 'cause they said i do faster and more efficient haha.

frankie came and wow i saw his IC photo! hahaha. super young man!

then nothing much alr i guess o.o

oh! and i wore slipper to work then change to work shoe after reaching haha. did i mention it just now? hmm..

toastbox still work till very late ):

no chance to take same bus as him again sigh.

anyway, i'm starting to get tired. haha. i mean, after working full shift the day before then 11.30 ytd and later on 11am.

so, goodbye. not yet goodnight hehe.

will be having lunch tmr with chinmei!

and telling her 'bout what happened. sigh.

i'm really afraid, she'll change her thinking of me after i tell her ):

i mean, who wouldn't have this fear in u that you're afraid one of ur great friend is going to change his/her impression of u right? sigh.

오전 12:09