Bad things happening..

While waiting for bus, he said things like it's mid autumn now and his mum must be crying, missing him.
and he said he miss her too and wants to fly back and give her a kiss.
then while on the bus, he said some in english and some in chinese to me that made me wants to cry out.
he said 'merry christmas, happy mid-autumn, happy new year, happy birthday.' then ask me if i know why he said all that greetings.
i said no and he said 'cause next time he won't have the chance to greet me like that for these different days.'
and he continued on 'i'm happy everytime i'm with you.' and ask me if i'm happy with him, and i said yes.
then he also said 'when i return to China, the first thing i'll think of when i wake up will be you. you will be my happy memories.'
at that time when he said those words, i swear tears are already welling up in my eyes, and i don't dare to look at him. so i kept looking out the window.
then he requested for a kiss on the cheek, so okay. and after that he say 'why you look so sad?' and i said nothing and just look out the window again.
then before he alight from the bus, he said 'i love you girl.' in english :')
then instead of alighting at my usual stop, i alighted at the stop near 149.
after alighting i quickly walked and sms people who know more about me and him.
and i cried while doing so, especially when telling them that it's not 'cause he forgot my birthday that i'm sad, that i cried. but the fact that he said those words seems like he's going to leave very very soon..
i didn't head up home instead i cried at the void deck.
then called Winnie up and she and CS came down.
before they reached, was on the phone with weihoong and he was telling me to calm down and don't anyhow think.
then after they reached, i hugged Winnie again and then told weihoong i'll call him later then cry a river.
sat down and i slowly told her the reason why i cried.
slowly slowly my mood became better after crying it out and then we started taking photos looking at the moon and all.
then weihoong called and we chatted, lol. yes three of us.
then i say 'at night meeting uh?' and he say 'u want go where?' and i say 'mac?' then he say 'use hamburger as cake, fries as candle and the ice-cream as fire.' LOL.
then talk talk and hanged up.
then Winnie on her laptop and we're listening to songs then she suddenly very randomly sing birthday song for me haha.
slacked somemore with Winnie and CS then around 3am then headed home.
Brother fetched me at the bustop and they cabbed back.
then reached home mum was lighting the candles and both of them sang birthday song for me :')
facebook and twitter for awhile before i head to bed 'cause initially i'm supposed to meet 2 Jaywalkerz 10.30am at Harbourfront but 8am meet Winnie for breakfast at Toastbox.

4 or 5am then slept and woke up at 7am.
bathed and called Winnie.
Used laptop and all. Then i was actually preparing to go out, deciding to party it out and just enjoy myself at Jay's event later.
then i look at Mikki's cage and realised he's still in the same position as just now when i reached home.
so i took his cage down, he didn't budge. i shook it, he didn't budge. i turned the food bowl, he didn't budge. and i knew something is wrong.
automatically tears welled up in my eyes again and i carried his soft body..
i just can't stop myself from crying and my dad asked me to throw away if not later got germs and all and i threw tantrum at him.
then i cried and cried and i sms some peeps about it.
and i decided that i am not in the right mood to go for Jay's event.
with those swollen eyes and having to sit down under the sun/rain with nothing to do.
sold my ticket for $50.

mood gotten better slowly.
weihoong called for awhile and wanted me to tell him through the phone what is the thing which made me change my mind to not go.
then i said 'tonight meet then tell you.' then he say 'i waiting for liyi later uh?' and i say 'no lah. idkw but i don't wish to. plus he ends at 11pm today' then he say 'wah. finally you waiting for me ah.' LOL.
then sister was on facebook then keep on crapping which made my mood better as well.
then just now daddy gave me angpao.
he remembered my birthday :')

meeting Mag unni at 5pm then 10.30pm going look for weihoong.
idk how to face spoon from now on. idkw, but i'm afraid i'll cry when i see him :'(

오후 3:35