Shan't talk about yesterday.
Or rather, blog it out in my private blog (:

Today was supposed to work, end up didn't.
Details shall not be said here 'cause not much people know about it.
At night met up with two friends for a short chat + they came to show concern for me.
Was worrying through out 'cause i really wanna know if he cared.
Then friend A knew i waiting for an sms so she sent an sms to me.
Then i was like *sigh* and wanted to read the sms then got a call came in. From a number idk.
So i picked up and it's his voice (:
Our conversation goes like this:

Me: Hello
Him: Hello. Zhanying ah?
Me: uh. *smiling to self already*
Him: You sick ah?
Me: uh
Him: Feeling better? Where are you now?
Me: Ya, much better *in mind, 'cause you called (:* I'm now with my friends
outside.
Me: You using your friend's phone?
Him: Ya
Me:
Tomorrow..you working what shift?
Him: Night shift. You tomorrow working?
Me: Yup.
Him: okay. Take care.
*hangs up*

keep smiling to self and both my friend say 'wah, zhanying happy liao huh. someone call already. hahaha.'
then another phone call came in -.-
picked up and machiam like spoil my mood already...
machiam like she my mum or what like that, although i know it's 'cause she care lah.
but...care abit too much huh? hang out with friends for awhile also cannot? chat with friends awhile also cannot? still want ask where am i?
hello! even my mum or real sister also never ask so much you know!
they know i hate it when people ask so many questions when i'm outside, esp when i'm with my friends. tsk.
and know what... this makes me think that you actually specifically REQUESTED him to call me to ask how am i and WHERE AM I!
and it makes me think that he called not because he's really concerned, but 'cause you requested for him to call, just so you can check on my location, right?
and even worse, IT BRINGS DOWN MY WHOLE MOOD! seriously...
like what i've posted on facebook as my status, i'll post it here (added more in, 'cause facebook sucks, got word limit):

You and me aren't blood-related, so why must you care so much? Even my own
parents and siblings won't ask me so much like 'where am you? who are you with?'
'cause they know i hate it. I hate people asking me these type of questions,
especially when it's not from my family members. And, why must you REALLY know my decision whether I'll be continuing my relationship with him or not? I know, you'll say 'cause you care but HELLO! why does it seem like you're pressing me
for an answer? I know dragging the issue between me and him for long won't be
good, but I know what I'm doing. I know you don't want me to get hurt by him or
w/e but really, I know what I'm doing. And if I don't wish to tell you my
decision, what can you do? And if my decision isn't what you wanted, what do YOU
want to do? Hypnotize me and ask me to change my mind? Spurt bad things about
him/China people/what guys would normally do to 'cause harm to a girl/saying
things about him leaving SG? Seriously, lawfully and UN-lawfully speaking, you got no rights and no control over me and my decision and w/e I'm doing!
Whether I'm outside and with who doesn't matter much to you, right? 'cause
1) we're not blood-related in anyway 2) I got my own privacy, so I need not report to you where I am and who I'm with 3) I've already got a mum a dad an elder sister and a younger brother who acts like my elder brother who are blood-related to m...e, so I don't need someone who is not blood-related to me to act beyond that border. TYVM!
In addition, I know when he leaves SG, i'll still get hurt and be upset.
But hell yeah, I know what I'm doing, seriously... My decision is to continue on
with him, that's it! I've decided to, instead of spending my days sadly with him
OR w/o him, i might as well just spend it with him happily right?! At least,
when he leaves, I won't have regrets of not spending time happily with him but
instead, I'll be happy that at least before he leaves, I managed to spend happy
times with him! At least, I won't come to regret, why didn't I spend those times
we have together happily, understand?

Okay, enough of my rant...
I read until I ownself also not sure where I'm typing to, LOL.
as in, i read and type and link until i blur already hahahaa.

오전 2:21