Thought of asking him if he still treats me as his girlf. or not.
End up, I didn't after I knew what his reaction towards Claire (asking if we're a couple or not) was.

I was happy at the start of work.
But when he was on his way to the toilet, Jovey was standing outside at the fridge and wanted to go buy mr bean for me to eat.
then he walked past and he use his finger to tap Jovey on her shoulder.
i just laughed 'cause it seems like he's having fun and Jovey say he's weird.
then when he came out, he didn't make any eye contact or whatsoever with me.
and my heart did sank a lil' but not as much as when Claire told me that thing.
She ask me 'the guy in your dp is the same guy as the toastbox one ytd right?'
i replied 'ya' then she say 'then why u both lie to me say you not together?' and i was like 'huh?' and she said 'cause ytd when she asking if he's my boyf. or not, he heard it and just nice Claire was looking at him as well then he just nice was turning back and he use his hand to make the 'no' sign...

Obviously, w/o me having to ask that question which is on my mind, there's alr an answer right?
after that, i've been feeling down through out.
After work, i knew him and his room mate is still at toastbox (which idk why either) but i just heck care and walked out with Claire Jovey and Winnie.
then i was waiting for bus, then like 5min past and i looked around.
then when i turn to the right, i saw both of them and i was like 'omg.' and quickly turn back.
then i thought they would stand at the other side or what together, but who knows his room mate stood beside me, and he stood at my other side.
it's like, i'm sort of sandwiched between them, just that there's big gaps in between.
then his room mate ask me now what time alr, and spoon said his friend dropped his phone.
on the bus, it's really damn awkward.
i swear idkw but i just feel like getting out of the bus...
i was playing with my phone thru out and when they alighted, i was sort of relieved.

met up with Jenies.
then bought whisky and she bought breezer.
then hungry so we buy cup noodles.
then eat and drank and talked..
and i was laughing, then cried.
Jenies was there for me, lending me her shoulder. Thanks xiaomei :')
i remember, i couldn't stand properly i think. wobbly.
then brother came to fetch me.
while walking home with him, i cried again while talking about him.

i should...really have a talk with him?
to clear misunderstandings and doubts...
i don't wish to be like last time...

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