I'm happy when he still greeted me and smile to me when he see me.
I'm happy until when I'm on the bus home.

I saw him leave by the other side, so i left by the side nearer to IR.
I kept wishing that he'll actually be behind me while walking, but no.
I decided to just let fate decide if I could board same bus as him or see him walk home.
And yeah, while on the bus, I saw him.
Running.
Idkw, but seeing him run, seeing him like that, i somehow think he's troubled.
Instead of taking bus like he usually does, he chose to walk/run back.
Why?
Is it 'cause of me?

Sarah said he did this, might be because he still loves me, but know that it'll be hard for both of us to part when he returns to China.
So, he's trying to avoid?
If this is really true, if he really confess right in my face that that's the reason why he did that,
i swear i'll really have the courage to tell him this:

I don't care who you are or where you're from. I don't care if it's going
to be hard for us to part by the time you need to return to China. What matters,
is that we spend the days we have together happily, right? To have each other as
company while we still can, rather than regretting it on the day when you got to
return to China. Let's just face it, we still love each other right?

Well, perhaps for the last part, no.
I'm feeling so lousy right now.
I bet, no one truly knows how i feel.
1st) to be in love with a foreign guy, who might be returning to his own country sooner or later.
2nd) to actually still be in love with him after knowing that you both can't be together.
3rd) to be thinking that he might still be troubled and still love you, but can't be true to our own feelings.

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