Sigh.
Accompanied mum to tamp1 for her work.
Then accompanied ah mai for her break and she treat me eat fish cake.
then accompanied winnie for her break and she treat me eat toastbox curry chicken.
and omg. to think my guess is correct!
ah hua really like winnie man! and on friday during winnie's off, both of them really met up with each other!
hahaha. but well, she haven't accept him yet 'cause of some reasons ~

starting i was thinking if he's working morning, afternoon or full.
'cause it's like before 1.30pm i already saw him at work?
but at 5pm he still doesn't leave so yeah.
sms frankie to tell him i helping out at work today.
then change into the spare uniform that is left at the work place.
L size uniform damn comfortable and big. LOL.
doesn't feel like working, but more like playing.
and took home biscuits made by shifu.

after work, headed to bus interchange with winnie.
instead of taking the 11pm bus, i decided to wait for the 2nd last bus.
in the hope that i might be able to take same bus as him since it's raining.
plus when we went off, toastbox is still busy doing don't know what 'cause their head is present -.-
sigh.
as expected, pin hopes up too high = disappointment.
i think if not for their head appearing during closing,
i think i can actually get to take same bus home with him.
oh! and during the first time he went to toilet,
he walked past me and blow my hair. LOL.
then i look at him and he turned behind and smile cheekily ~ cute.

on the bus and after alighting from the bus,
my whole mind is filled up with how we started our first conversation,
how me and jolyn 'tailed' him to find out which bus he's taking,
how jolyn urged me to ask him where he live,
how he first sat beside and talked to me,
how jolyn said that he's looking at me while walking past us,
how he first showed interest in me,
how he expressed his love for me,
how we spent times together happily.

but...
there's going to be no more of such happy memories, right?
i really wonder...
does he still love me? or no?
the way he treats and reacts to me, sometimes really make me think hard.

what if tmr after seeing doctor, and it's said that i've got some illness or what,
will he care? will he want to treasure more times with me? or will he just let it be? will he just pretend everything is normal?
if i told him that i still love him,
will he bother? will he be happy to accept this relationship of ours again? or will he try to ignore it? will he just say that it's impossible between us?
if one day it's not me who walked over to him to tell him what's on my mind,
but someone who knows both me and him,
telling him that i'm lying on the hospital bed,
will he visit me? will he spend more time with me? or will he just make one simple phone call, ask how are you and that's it? will he just say 'ok' to the person and just treat as though nothing happened?

all these are killing me right now, deep inside.

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