headed to tamp1 for breakfast with agnes.
javin joined us, chat about the past and present.
agnes headed to work, me and javin slacked and walked around.
had lunch with winnie and agnes but i didn't eat.
6pm javin headed home and i'm at tamp1 waiting for agnes knock off.
helped out in wrapping the biscuits.
talked about spoon to agnes.
frankie came and crapped.
i wonder if my eyes are playing a trick on me,
but i thought i saw him using a phone when i was helping out with closing.
told agnes about it, hold back my tears.
reach home, told brother about it.
mum suddenly came out of toilet ask me questions, i crapped nonsense to her and laughed, then cried a lil'.
mum didn't notice, she went back toilet, i went kitchen and cry.
he's really treating me like a stranger now?
i bet he's forgotten my phone number?
if what i saw was right, he must've not have the thought of contacting me, even as a friend.
silent break...
people around me want me to ask him and sort things out clearly as to why we broke up.
i wish i can, but i don't want to.
yes i'm curious, but i don't wish for it to kill the remaining parts of me.
'cause i heeded their advice, 'cause i wanted to sort things out clearly as to why he said those words the day before my b'day,
things turned out this way when i least expected it.
what if this time round i ask again, and the answer is more hurtful than thought?
what if i ask again, and we can't even be strangers anymore?
what if i ask again, and from then on he won't even want to see me?
what if i ask again, and it just burdens him more?
what if i ask again, and it just brings me and him further apart until i lose sight of him forever?
what if what if what if...
what if we were never together
what if i had never fallen for you
what if i had not accepted you even though i love you
what if i just let things be and not ask you that question
what if i never make any effort to see you during work
what if i never tire myself out just to be with you for a short while during breaks
what if i never schedule my work timing just to be the same as yours
what if i never try, will you try?
I want a Macbook
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