then hua suddenly talk about me keep on using my phone,

means i am someone who is in my own world etc etc.

then i rebut back say 'cannot meh? i like being in my own world' then etc etc.

and winnie came and then suddenly hua look up, give me the 'cheeky' (idk how describe) expression and say 'just like him also ah.' and i turned back.

who knows, it's him... & indeed what i saw was right that day...

he's indeed using a phone...

and this time it's me seeing the truth so up-close that what was going through in my mind is 'why must i see this scene? i mean...that time through his back-view is enough for me already. why this time i must see it again? and more up-close?'

i forgot what hua said after that, but it's still regarding me and him,

so i sort of flare up at him and i went to change.

but why am i so ... weak in controlling my emotions?

i started crying once i locked the cubicle door.

started work, i can't seem to stay happy.

winnie they all knew something was wrong with me, but they didn't really probe much about it.

they just occasionally talked to me, tried to make me smile and ask if i'm okay.

thanks for your concerns girls (:

then during closing i was standing outside wiping the glass plates,

then i collected the tongs and wanted to walk back in when he walked past me.

i didn't raise my head up but i know it's him.

i was like, stunned for a moment, which idkw either and i kept telling myself i didn't see him at all. that he didn't walk past me at all. but well... w/e.

Thanks Alien Panda for encouraging me (: It made me feel better. I'll be hard-hearted from now on and forget him, like totally.

Thanks Sarah and Mag unni for being worried about me. At least i know you girls care for me even though we've never met before/we didn't meet for quite some time already (:

He's a lier. Those words he said in the past to me ain't true.I should not have been taken in in the first place. How stupid of me. I can't be stupid anymore, i got to forget about him forget about everything totally. Only then, will i be happy, right? Right!