Spoon is leaving soon. He told me that he'll be tending his resignation letter and having a talk with the manager. He know that they're going to ask him to stay, but he said he'll not stay anymore.. And before May 20th, he will leave Singapore...

I cried right after reaching home, my heart really sank a lot.. The feeling after hearing him telling me this is just unbearable for me... it's nearly 2hours since i cried, and i really got the urge to go find him and give him a hug and tell him what i'm really thinking but...it's all just an imagination... i can only hug myself and cry and can't do anything..

flashbacks of the past just keep on replaying in my mind... i wish for it to stop but it just don't... from when we first met, all the way till now... listening to 'Sorry that i love you' and '散场的拥抱' by Anthony Neely and '0330' by U-Kiss just made me cry even more...

xiaomei is crying as well, from what i see on twitter and i can't do anything to cheer her up with my current state.. i can't say anything to her with my current state... i can't comfort her with my current state... but at least, there's sinyi and chinmei comforting her... i'm never a good erjie... i hope she feels better soon...